Fight Against Anxiety

As you guys probably remember, in my last post I mentioned that I was lost. So I am here to talk about it today. The past 2-3 months I have been extremely lost, I had the next 5 years of my life planned out. School has been making me rethink everything though, every day I go to school dreading my class. Everything about it has made me rethink my career path and the future. I have for sure doubled my anxiety levels. I am a type of person who likes to have everything figured out, but you can’t have everything figured out. Basically I have been so stuck in my own head about what to do with myself. I started this year off with a huge flame for the career I have chosen, but thought the year, it has died down. I guess I still enjoy the work on the job, but the school work I have to do makes it feel not worth it.

Since I have been having this problem I have been rethinking my path in life. I love nature so much, I feel at peace there, but I have spent so much time and effort in my original career path that I feel obligated to go into it. I still love the work, but sometimes It does not feel worth it. So I have been struggling understanding and accepting the feeling of not knowing what to do. Usually I would get out in nature to clear my head and think more clearly, But I have not been able to do that lately due to weather, it sucks. I did hear a quote that brought me some comfort. Gary Vee stated in one of his videos, “The fact that people actually think at 18, 22, or 30, you have to have your life figured out, is ridiculous”. He is completely right as well. That brought me comfort, because I have been stuck in this vicious loop of overthinking and it is very hard on the mind. I don’t know if any of you have experienced this before in your life, but know that I understand how you feel and things will work out. I am here as well if anyone needs to talk. Tomorrow I will continue talking about my struggle and my game plan from here. Until then, stay safe everyone and I will talk to you guys tomorrow.